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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 09:59

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I waited trembling.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Have you ever been forced to dress like a girl?

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

So whats the point in blame.

She found it foreign!.

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My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

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And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

When she asked me how she looked .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Have you ever regretted not hitting on a older women?

But ive been too sick for many years..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I was 9 years of age.

What happened to your school bully?

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

My family never makes their pension either.

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I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

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It was going to be , some day.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

What do gang stalkers want?

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

How does someone start doing urban exploration?

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I was very sick at this time too.

She married twice! .

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All the time i was locked up.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

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Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I have no regrets .

I said to her

Comes on , in middle age.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I don,t even have a pension.

He knew the spot.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

So, i spoilt her more .

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

This is soul school!.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Put me off passion for life!!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

He resisted the act ,that day.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I think the readers, may guess!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Was to survive, this bastard.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I never cut or harmed myself..

I had hoped to write a book about this .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

And i lived it daily.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I couldn’t, believe it.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

What did i know ?

This is how, and why children get BPD.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

She wouldn,t have been !

Would this be the day?

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I write beautiful poetry .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

But, we were locked up after school.

She was in good health!

I was scared of men, in general

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

One cannot live in the past .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

We were not on the streets..

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Ive learnt so much.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

My life is so biszare .

Where the ultimate outsiders.

We all went to grammer schools

Why did i forgive my father ?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Im still living with it.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

She loved him until the end.

I was seconnd youngest,

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

(And it was in our own minds.)

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Who then, do I blame.?

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I will be 64.

But it wasn’t much.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)